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[phineasjones]

you know what i really hate? being told to fuck off in advance. that may or may not make sense. whatever.

stella just tried to open the door to the porch by stretching up and batting at the door knob. omg, she's so smart! ::pets smart kitty::

alllllrighty then. it's get down to business day. yesterday sucked a little bit, emotionally. i would really like today to be better. and this afternoon, there is therapy. ::bites nails:: i'm kind of weirdly nervous about this. mostly about being able to express to her - Lynn is her name - why i'm there. i feel like i should write out a several page outline of my issues, so i don't forget anything. and i should prioritize them too. like, ok, yes, we can talk about my brother, but only if you make insightful comments about how that affects my everyday life anxiety. otherwise, i've been there and done that, thanks.

ok. now before i get started, i just have to adjust my lj colors to better match both the season and my new desktop.

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[camillafarfalla.livejournal.com]

ooh, pretty new colors!

When I think about seeing a therapist, that kind of list/synopsis of my life is one of the first things that comes to mind - it just seems so practical to give her a little cheat sheet of "okay, this is who I am and where I come from and these are the issues I think I've dealt with and these are the ones I'm coming to you with and these are maybe the other ones that influence some of that not that I'm trying to do your job for you bc of course there's likely other stuff I don't even know about, but so we don't take up several sessions just reviewing stuff I already know and can get right down to brass tacks instead. And by the fact that I wrote all this up you can already deduce that I'm an efficient control-freak, so I've helped you there too." So yes, I'm in support. *g*

And who told you to fuck off in advance?! ::looks threatening:: Bring it; I'll take 'em!

Good luck rockin' the world today, love! ::kisses::

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

your letter to the therapist here just fills me with delight because, yes, that's exactly what i'm talking about. i feel like i did a fairly good job of it in the first session, even though it wasn't written down. :)

[jjtaylor.livejournal.com]

Who you told you fuck off in advance??? What the hell does that even mean? I'll call in my mob connections if you need them, alright?

Hope therapy goes well. The first meeting, or the first dicussion of a new topic, is the scariest for me - because who knows if the therapist will be so off base and you'll be sitting there going, "What are you talking about?" I hope you avoid that awkwardness and have a good meeting.

[marginalia.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry. it was just a debate i didn't want to have, and my lj is prone to that sort of thing.

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

oh, it's alright. it's just, i wouldn't have, you know? so it felt like i was being told off for thinking. and then i posted in a huffy moment which is never really a good idea.

i like you. :)

[marginalia.livejournal.com]

*whew*

that wasn't at all what i meant, though i totally see that that's what i said. it's just that i could see waking up this morning to some kind of drawn out fight, like when i came back from visiting my parents and there was a 30 something comment fight about chicklit in my lj. and that thought just made me very tired.

i like you too :)

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

my gf was just asking me what i was talking about in this post and i explained and she said, 'wow, that was really passive agressive of you.' and wah, she's right and i feel awful. so. sorry. ♥

but seriously

[(Anonymous)]

y'know what, though? just fuck off. really. in advance, now, whatever. just go fuck yourself. fuckwit.