phineasjones

when OotP came out, i had fun times with other fans, sat around in a barns and noble for hours and obtained my book about seven minutes after it was officially released. that will not be the way things shake down this year. when HBP comes out, i will be sleeping (i hope) in a pet-friendly motel outside of chicago. i don't know when i will be getting my copy, nor do i have any idea when i'll be able to read it. the 16th will see us on our way to a pet-friendly motel in lincoln, nebraska. the 17th should eventually find us in denver, where we will sleep on the floor of our house (after the traditional meal on the bare floor) and meet the truck full of our stuff on the morning of the 18th. we will then unpack as quickly as we can and i will commence studying for my preliminary exams.

somewhere in there, i will read the book. it makes me a little crazy that i can't just get it right away and spend two days reading (yes, it would take me at least that long, i am a slow, slow reader). but i suppose i'm lucky in that i will be away from lj anyway because of moving and such, so it's convenient for avoiding spoilers. except that it also makes me sad to be away from lj. ::sigh::

anyway. from the 14th on, i won't really be reading - because i won't have a chance to and because i really don't want to be spoiled this time. i may post - about the trip and all that, but won't be checking the flist for a while. wah.

::lurves::

i have a new computer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh, the love. the love. i'm so thrilled. i have named her miranda. i suggested miranda as a good name for camilla's computer and then she chose to go with her npr theme instead, i believe. which is great. but then miranda stayed in my mind and when i saw my little beauty, i just knew. i splurged for a ridiculous clip-on, color cover. so it's grassy green. it's called 'bamboo.' heehee. i am promising in my heart to take very, very good care of miranda. i have a rather atrocious track record at this point. no more dead computers!!! this one needs to see me through my doctorate. so... no spilled water, no crazy spyware attacks, no dead ac connections... please.

t-minus 6 days. ::deep breathing:: holy shit, man. holy shit.

i need an icon of heading to the mountains. hmm... i don't have photoshop on here yet. or anything. somebody, make me a mountain icon? i'll... pack a box for you! yeah. mmhmm.

k. i need to fold laundry, get myself dressed and go say goodbye to my grandfather. much as i'd rather sit here, gazing at miranda.

eta: oooh!!! looky! tags! i've been thinking that i should look into that but haven't been able to convince myself it was a good use of my time. but new semagic version, and voila! tags. handy.

i saw camillafarfalla. she was talking better and even managed to smile quite a bit. and then there were also tears - not just hers - because, yes, this was our goodbye. like this weekend was our goodbye to claire. like all these days are turning into goodbyes.

i've never been as good as i am right now about planning and prepping and spending my time well. i'm actually doing the things i need to do to move across the country in just over a week. which is great. but as the departure date (7/14) draws closer, i feel less and less emotionally ready. i love northampton. i love my friends here and all over massachusetts (and new york and connecticut, etc). i love my family and being close to them. this is going to be hard. and i've known that all along but now i can really feel it. i look at a map of the country and i think about the multiple days - or hundreds of dollars - it takes to get from here to there and my breath vanishes.

i'm thirty. i'm a big girl. i know that i will be able to handle this. it's not that kind of fear. maybe it's not fear at all, just sadness. at parting from so many great people and such a great place. at the end of some kind of era of my life. it does help me to think about lj and its potential to keep me connected to people i love. but it will be different. so much will be different.

and so... i'll just pack three more boxes today and keep at it.

oh yes, i am so awesome. i have destroyed yet another computer. go me.

::grump::

it's not as bad as all that. the computer was already mostly useless. it couldn't run office. i was only using it because my laptop has no power source (right, bc i broke that too) and it could run explorer and outlook, so good enough for now. then, yesterday, nasty virus attack. and in trying to get rid of it, it seems rach and i deleted key things it needs to connect to the internet. so now it won't. so... crap.

again, could be worse. i am getting a new computer shortly - already ordered, in fact. still, i am inconvenienced and annoyed. and my already sparse lj presence may be further reduced, since i will be sharing rach's computer for a while.

i have barely been on anyway. i've become quite obsessive about getting things done. important, preparing-to-move type things. which is great, but a little weird. and really, not exactly ideal. what i'm doing to relax these days is collapsing in front of the tv in the evenings and watching whatever is on, or sometimes some s2 gilmore girls. which is not awful, but i'm missing lj and friends. i'm just so tired (and so fucking hot), it's hard to imagine even going over to the computer. and once you get a little out of it, it's hard to get back in.

i have read some recent fic, and i had windows open so i could feedback the authors when i felt up to it, and then of course i lost all those. sad times. the one fannish thing i've been keeping up with is beta-ing for jjtaylor who has been out of control prolific lately. what was it, 6 challenges in a month and a half or something like that? craziness. wonderful craziness. head to her journal for good fic.

so, yes, the point. i won't be around here consistently for a while, likely until after the move (july 14-18), so don't assume i've read anything. e-mail me if you need me or need me to know something.

and on that topic, i'm going to stop using my lj e-mail address for a while bc no, i actually don't need help with that erection, thanks though. so don't use it. use my gmail. which is totallygeeky.

love to you all.