phineasjones

polenta with stufado this evening. mmm. and too much red wine. i am feeling homey and antisocial. and stressed. i hate that i do this to myself. the upcoming music service at church is chewing on my nerves. i blame the choir. or, certain members. every time we have a music service (this is my 5th), there are some members who doubt my choice of music. they doubt their own abilities, they doubt the beauty and appropriateness of the music etc etc. they've always been wrong. but every time i get scared all over again. it would suck if they were right. and i feel more insecure about this one. usually the winter music is christmas-themed. this year, i decided to go with chanukah music for something new and different. there's a lot of great music for chanukah. and i threw in some other great jewish music for good measure. some people aren't pleased. they can fuck off. i've had too much wine. and i'm stressed.

Current Mood: stressed

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well, we're supposed to call it a service. :) there will be prayers and readings and such. also, it's on the north shore, so i don't expect any of the valley-ites to submit themselves to my bi-weekly trek.

oh and yes, i'm the conductor. am here at the church as i type. ::sigh::