sees a C and sounds its key!

we had guests last night. florencia who rach used to work with and her partner dewayne. i didn't see much of them since i skipped out on dewayne's poetry reading to study more. ::sigh:: but they are sweet and it was nice to have more people we know around. they were our second set of guests and we've not even been here a month yet. and soon, rach's high school friend, jo, will visit. followed by cassandra and her parents. and then rach's mom in early october and my parents later in october (right?) and we're hoping claire and dan will be around at thanksgiving.

i write these all our because they are reassuring to me. especially as i approach the beginning of school. i am very exciting for that, but as always, the excitement is mixed with fear and dread. ::quivers::

the studying goes on... not as quickly or thoroughly as i would like, of course. i just keep talking myself down from freak-outs. if i fail one or more of them (which, for doctoral students, means getting lower than a B-) i can try again in january. not the end of the world. which would be comforting if it weren't the humiliation that i truly fear. ::another sigh::

jeanne says i have to state my intention and not my fear. ok. i intend to pass all five exams.

...

it's hard to convince myself of these things.

business

a couple lj business-y thing i want to take care of. and they require some input.

1. i am going to be going to a default friends lock soon. it makes me rather sad to do it but i think, with school starting... where i will be a TA and all... it just makes sense. i plan to keep fic posts open. i once had bookmarked a link to whatever it is that lets you flock all of your archive in one go, but that was two computers ago. can anyone hook me up?

2. is there anyone who has friended me who i have not friended back who would like to be friended back so s/he can keep reading? leave a comment.

3. this is the difficult one. i cannot possibly read my entire flist while in school. it's just not feasible. so. i see my options are filter or trim. if i filter, there is the possibility that i will occasionally read the people i filter out. but i don't want to be dishonest. if people expect that by my having them friended, we are in a reciprocal-ish relationship where i read them and they read me... well, that just may not be the case. but i imagine that some people care a lot about this. i would like to know. so, answer this question, would you? (and the fun question too bc the poll was too boring.)

[Poll #549982]

4. i just don't know what life will be like from here on out. i imagine, though, that i will have a good deal less time for fannishness than in the past. wah. i started this journal a few weeks before i graduated from my masters program. so have never been in school with an lj. my point is that if the mundane details of my real life stuff bore you... you might want to bail. and i will understand. truly. so, it's up to each of you, of course. but don't worry about my feelings. i'll be fine. :)

bugger

the book i got to review post-tonal analysis is great. clear, concise (so far), and has handy review exercises at the end of each chapter.

but with NO ANSWER KEY. fer cryin' out loud, this is a graduate level book, why would they not give the answers? now how to i know if i'm right?

annelarissa? do you have a post-tonal exam? will you tell me if i'm right?

man.

and you know i'm procrastinating when i have a thought like, i really need to swiffer the kitchen floor. right NOW.

ok. y-x(mod12). y-x(mod12). say it with me now.