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i don't really have time to post... i have to jump in the shower and then take spike for her oil change. but i'm posting anyway... mostly because i need cuddles. i just hashed out yesterday's testing experience in my personal journal and... it's funny. i was feeling the trauma of it all day yesterday without really being able to figure out why it was so traumatic. but i made myself think about it this morning and write it out and... yeah, it really was traumatic. and more frustrating than i can articulate.

expect massive photo spam from me today. i have to give back the computer i've been using to charge my computer's battery, so this is my last chance to get pics off of there for a while. many 80s prom pics and some from other recent parties etc too.

i feel like there was something else i intended to say in this post... huh. off to shower then.

picture pages!

ok. in this post are all the pics i want to share that are not from the 80s prom party. there are pics of a kitty, my hair, colorado, scottxwl's birthday party, madmadharri's birthday party and a couple from my family-centric birthday party.

for lack of a better plan, i will post them chronologically. i think. and since i have no idea when i took this one, i'll leave it out here as a teaser.

stella!!! lounging.

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the L followed by the J

i could write many long posts about my thoughts and feelings about lj lately. but... the writing of the long posts in itself would bring up yet more thoughts and feelings. to sum up: i'm confused. and i'm wondering what's going to happen in months to come - with the moving and the starting school and all of that. and it's all fresh in my mind because of a recent un-friending. i kind of expect massive unfriending every day now and i feel a little amazed that it's not happening. i'm not actually less fannish than i have been but you wouldn't know that from my posts, would you? would you know that i've been steadily working on a fic for weeks now and that i have been OBSESSING over sirius/remus in that all-consuming, old skool way?

no, you wouldn't. because i'm not really posting about it. because i've been posting less in general. and why? i don't know. well, i do. i know some parts of it. but i'm not being intentional about my approach to fandom or lj and that's what's making me a little nutty. and i feel like my confusion links in to that of many other people who are going through similiar things.

maybe it will all change wheh half-blood prince comes out and we all need to buckle down and talk to each other and new fic will be inspired or something. maybe.

and unfriending... it's everyone's personal right and deicision. but it's also my right to flip someone off if i feel like i've been kicked while i'm down, know what i'm sayin'?