the L followed by the J

[phineasjones]

i could write many long posts about my thoughts and feelings about lj lately. but... the writing of the long posts in itself would bring up yet more thoughts and feelings. to sum up: i'm confused. and i'm wondering what's going to happen in months to come - with the moving and the starting school and all of that. and it's all fresh in my mind because of a recent un-friending. i kind of expect massive unfriending every day now and i feel a little amazed that it's not happening. i'm not actually less fannish than i have been but you wouldn't know that from my posts, would you? would you know that i've been steadily working on a fic for weeks now and that i have been OBSESSING over sirius/remus in that all-consuming, old skool way?

no, you wouldn't. because i'm not really posting about it. because i've been posting less in general. and why? i don't know. well, i do. i know some parts of it. but i'm not being intentional about my approach to fandom or lj and that's what's making me a little nutty. and i feel like my confusion links in to that of many other people who are going through similiar things.

maybe it will all change wheh half-blood prince comes out and we all need to buckle down and talk to each other and new fic will be inspired or something. maybe.

and unfriending... it's everyone's personal right and deicision. but it's also my right to flip someone off if i feel like i've been kicked while i'm down, know what i'm sayin'?

Comments

[glitterdemon.livejournal.com]

very much with you. while i'm still involved in fandom, i haven't felt inclined to write much in my journal. i've been doing much more rp'ing, rather than reading and writing fic. it's just become a bit more insular lately, speaking for myself... and i have noticed that fandom's kinda... boring, lately. maybe we just need some new canon to get us excited again, and feeling the need to fangirl loudly and publicly. :D

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

yeah. i feel like this kind of lj ennui is affecting many people i know. and that probably just enhances it - if reading the flist just becomes a bunch of reading about people's ambivalence to their flists... yeah.

i do have some hopes for new canon inspiration. but they're cautious hopes because i didn't feel this way at all before OotP. there was no lull to bounce back from them. but times change. and that's what makes me a little sad.

[marginalia.livejournal.com]

i had an unfriending this week that hurt, dude. i could ramble, but really, that's it. it came out of nowhere, it stung, and i don't think it was out-of-line for me to be hurt by it. and i feel strange about everything because i am cramming lj into an hour a day and it's an entirely different experience that way. and. anyway. maybe i just wanted to say hi :)

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

hm. i kind of wonder if it was the same unfriending. but i have no particular basis for thinking that.

this one stung me too. which is annoying. the whole thing is annoying. having to cram lj into an hour a day would be annoying. trying to decide how to balance lj/fandom and other aspects of life it just... utterly confusing.

and i'm glad you said hi. ♥

[marginalia.livejournal.com]

naw, i had wondered that too. it is all complicated. and i still go back and forth on my lj because i don't feel very fannish lately, but of course a huge percentage of the people i interact with are real life people. so that helps lessen the guilt -- some of them, i think, would be delighted if there was no fandom in my journal at all.

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

no fandom in your journal! ::horrified gasp::

:) no, real life is good too. and i have real life friends on lj who probably feel the same way. well... the ones i haven't dragged into fandom anyway.

so now i think maybe it was the same unfriending. it is indeed very complicated. my feelings about this particular unfriending are particularly complicated. and frickin aggravating, i'll tell you. ::grumbles::

ok. getting over it now.

[brightest-blue.livejournal.com]

These friending dynamics are strange, aren't they? These days, I'm more likely to unfriend someone (extremely rare) because they've become obsessively involved in a fandom I know little or don't care about and don't post about their lives anymore.

I love the fannish stuff, but I want to know what's going on in my girls' (and a few boys') lives and if they are into some weird anime thing I've never heard of, well, that's all part of it. But it's the real human drama that's the true joy of LJ for me.

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

so strange. myself, i've taken to wanton filtering. and i just assume people filter me out when they need to. and for some reason, that thought doesn't hurt me as much as an unfriending.

yeah, i'm a human drama girl too. but i know there's a big chunk of my flist who are only here because they liked the one fic i've had a lot of success with. and i can't imagine what keeps them here. but, whatever. to each her very own.

[brightest-blue.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've become better at filtering, but at some point, I usually panic, go back and skim everything because I'm so afraid of missing something. :-)