chez moi ce soir

have just accomplished special project of gluing paper onto cardboard. really pretty paper. cardboard box. now i have a really pretty box. happy me.

i wonder if i post more when using semagic. this no client thing stinks. but not half as much as the dead computer thing. ::sobs:: still trying... haven't given up hope yet... but... ::quakes::

semester two of my women's ensemble job began this evening. 5 women in attendance. one of them was the deaf old lady with alzheimer's. i don't get it. how fun could this be for her? why does she keep coming back? maybe it's some kind of cosmic test of my compassion... of my worthiness as a human being. damn, bitching about it here probably means i fail. see you all in hell.

::ahem:: memememememe

hmm. ::squints suspiciously at mac client:: i guess this will do.

blehblehbleh. staff meeting at church in half and hour. these are so pointless. the minister and i figure out what we need to in about 5 minutes then i sit and listen to her yammer on to eveyone else for two hours. un.necessary.

i lack inspiration. for this post. for the damn fic. for many other areas of my life. hmm. i think i'll try this one - i saw syxer7 do it and, you know, why not? and let's add a question element...

ask me anything or say anything you want about me, anonymously...


and, in exchange, also gacked from pam, ( friends list meme )

slash at the staff meeting

oh goodness. i'm still giggling.

so, the secretary brought up some funny article she read about ttt this weekend. and how the article had frodo being all, hey, i'm supposed to be the star, why does he get the two women? to which i couldn't help but reply - no way, frodo and sam were doing just fine on their own.

the secretary smiled but the minister turned to me and said, reaaaallly?!?!?!?!. so... i went on for a while about the beautiful love of frodo and sam. and how, when you get down to it, those books are all about friendship and love. she looked thoughtful and encouraged me so i blithered on... now about legolas and gimli. and she started TAKING NOTES!!!! she wants to use this in her sermon on the 16th and she wants to e-mail me with some more detailed questions. ahaha. ahahahahaha!!!!!! ::happy dance of amusement::

and the panic sets in. again.

omg. omigod. barf. i'm trying to write this thing and it hurts! ithurtsithurstithurts.

::breathe::

ok, so, i can't see anywhere that it says i'm not supposed to reveal the pairing before i write the fic. so. it's sirius/remus. SIRIUSFUCKINGREMUS!!! are they trying to kill me?

without major help from starbuckle today and some kind words from ursule, i don't know that i could even have started... but. now, i've started and i hate it. i want to kill it. dead. oh god. how could i not have thought of this possibility? am a big dumbass.

how can i possibly do this?

but really i'm not actually your friend

i really want ramen and we don't have any. pooh.

i wonder why mmm_cake left a cooked potato cut in half sitting all alone on the table when she went to rehearsal. hhmmm. ::scratches chin::

dude, i worked out today! and then i thought i might die. and then i felt super hungry and so i ate a bunch of crap. i think there's a flaw in this system somewhere.

missed buffy yet again because of an extra rehearsal tonight. i would like to say brahms is worth it... but... buffy!!! don't know when i'll get the tape from my dad. i'll just stick my fingers in my ears and sing loudly til then. LALALALALA.

but actually, brahms is worth it and i keep having to explain that to the choir. yes, it's not easy and natural... but once you understand what's going on, you will never tire of this. it's music that is so solidly built, it stand up under extreme pressure. ::nods::

mmm... chocolate.