music. music!

got back from r's an hour or so ago. i borrowed a cd of a concert from last year in which i sang in three choirs. she conducted one of them. first i was struck yet again by just how good akiko and i sound together. damn. and right now i'm listening to r's chorus and kevin's voice stands out in the tenor section... in a good way. and i suddenly miss him powerfully. i remember he and i stood together in the middle of the arched bow of singers. i miss him. i miss singing.

and hindemith. guh.

the thing with akiko... i've gushed about this before. both of us have nice voices... not big and soloistic, good for early music (at this concert we sang gesualdo motets and monteverdi madrigals). but when singing together, something amazing happens. and i luck out. at this concert, we were the only two on 1st soprano. everyone thought i was soloing. haha. singing with her just focused and amplified my voice. and it felt amazing. hmm. remind me to look her up. her and kevin.

hindemith!!!

my life as a lazy ass mothafucka

camillafarfalla? don't you think you should come over here and do a little dance to entertain me?

oh, my lady bought me my favorite kind of tea last night while i was out. ::schnuggles lady::

slept late. very. possibly related to staying up late. very. doh. stupid. when will i ever learn? and so, now what? so many things i need to do and could do... hrmm. i like the camilla coming over and dancing option.

lalala, starbuckle is fetching coffee. i'm listening to that cd again. i think this is maybe equivalent to when old couch potato-y guys sit on the couch and drink budweiser and watch their old varsity football games and remember how it used to be. except this was less than a year ago. and i'm not on the couch and i'm drinking coffee.

seeing r last night got me thinking all sorts of life thoughts. she's applied to doctorate programs. something i've been thinking about more and more. and it was encouraging that... well, she just did it. threw together applications and sent them off. and now, she may have to do some auditioning... but. it will be good to see how it goes for her, bc i think we are pretty much on the same level. a doctorate. ::brain explodes::

gip?

am ambivalent about this icon. perhaps because i am ambivalent about the actors as well. hmm. well, there it is anyway.

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i hate today. someone, help me fix it. i fear it is permanently broken. i'm feeling pretty awful. bleh. procrastination is evil. it always seems so pretty in the moment and then, when the light fades, the you see it for the ugly, soul-sucking monster that it truly is.

et invisibilium omnium

i have a little note for the universe re: the fact that neither camillafarfalla nor myself have received calls from the places where we interviewed last week.
universe,
fine. we've been smacked down before. but do you have to wear that nasty, self-satisfied smirk while you're smacking us? it doesn't become you.
and, oh yeah, fuck off.
phin

if you had a part time job and you had to opportunity the take on more work - about 1/2 again what you were already doing - for _no_ extra pay, would you do it?
right, i'm a fricking idiot.

perspective

after choir tonight, one of my basses pulled me aside to talk to me. walter. he's one of the older members. kind of makes me think of bing crosby the way he talks and he has big blue eyes. he's one of the sweetest people i know. anyway, i'm wary of being pulled aside because it's usually either a complaint of some sort or someone's going to be missing rehearsals or services - none of which i want to hear.

but walter pulled me aside to tell me that he has prostate cancer. and that he's having surgery in a few weeks and isn't sure what level of participation he can promise.

this on a day when i have been a whiny infant about nothing. my life is amazingly good. a lazy day here and there does not warrant moping like today's. my body functions. i have so many friends i love. i have an amazing girlfriend and a wonderful family. all of whom are relatively healthy. (knocking)

so i just had to write this here to tell you all to ignore my whining earlier. i'm going to bed happy tonight. worried about walter, but happy.