good mornin blah blah blah how are ya

mrph. church staff meeting this morning. or! i could stay home and scratch my fingers over the chalk board! hmmm... i'll have to think about that one.

i had the active but quotidian day-in-the-life sort of dream and i woke up convinced i had just gone to bed. it always sucks - that moment when you realize it's time to get up.

but i'm finding i have a nice feeling of optimism hanging out with me lately. maybe it come from being gainfully employed - at least for the moment.

still in the midst of welcome to the real world. it's very strange to read h/d slash in which they take their time... don't drop to the floor and get busy at the first moment of contact. in that way, the story is mildly refreshing, even if i know she's just doing it to prolong a sense of angsty tension. i approve of that general goal. but there's a thing she does that bugs me; i'm reading along, it's shifting between harry and draco's povs and then, suddenly, it's no one's pov and it's that weird, passive, vague thing so many people fall into - mouths touched, hands roved yada yada. suddenly no one is making the actions, they are being made. and it's always strikingly different from the language just before. takes me completely out of the story. hate that.

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am finding it difficult to gather the motivation needed to get my ass out the door and to my job. ::sigh:: who said this self-scheduled thing was a good idea? me. memememe. love it. but, motivation. yeah.

the staff meeting this morning was uneventful but troubling. so much bitching about church politics. but the minister is all about us pulling together as the four woman staff that we are and supporting each other and blah blah. and i generally agree that that's a good idea - and that there are some folks in that church who are problematic in the way they go about things. but i feel stuck in the middle. i don't like her or the way she does things but i don't think they're doing a much better job of it. so, who can i be honest and open with there? no one, it would seem. and that stinks. there's the re director, but we're in the same boat. still, should talk to her alone. hmm.

ok. ok. i'm going to work now. hmph. but first i'm going to change my pants. i don't feel groovy enough in these pants and there's not really enough room for the knee brace.

o sleep fond fancy

vanityfair as the voice of reason? ok.

i'm tired and i need to go to bed. but first! there is always a but first.

buffybuffybuffy. watching with monkey was fun times as usual, but i was kind of missing the room full of squealing girls + scottxwl. why is there no new episode next week? whywhywhy??? meep. we watched the last episode right before tonight's - i hadn't seen it because it was the night ttt came out. yes, i was occupied. so it was quite the intense buffy night for me.

and now i'm all tuckered out. sleep is in order. i swear i had approximately 100 things to say gathered in my brain, but not a one of them is forthcoming. bed.