coffee

mmm. rach made cinnamon swirl challah last night and holy fuck is it good. i think someone needs to put it somewhere i can't get to. as i have certainly had my fill. yum.

i have quite the ridiculous number of e-mails and comments to respond to. weekend pile-up and all. and i won't even really have time til later today. as i am shuttling judy around once again. i don't mind doing this, at all. but it will be so much easier when she's living here and not a half hour away.

i was useless for most of yesterday. i just wanted to curl up in a little ball. i did that a little. watched some buffy - good for the soul, i believe. read some chamber of secrets. and then i picked up rach from work (on sunday! blah!) and we went to the middle east for veggie burgers. i saw someone from high school while we were there. and it's too bad i was in such the wrong mood. i hid so i wouldn't have to talk to her. but she was someone i'd actually liked a lot. i hope i run into her some other time. small world. la la la.

hmm. i never know what to think or say on the day after an emotional outburst of any sort. yeah. andrew's still dead and it's still terrible beyond reckoning, but today i don't feel the need to sob like i did yesterday. maybe that's not actually so true. maybe it's more like i don't want to get into it today when i couldn't help it yesterday. mm. that's more like it. so. anyway. i'm feeling like i need to see claire. so few people in my life now knew my brother at all. hominidj... and claire. and claire knew him better than most. i'm suddenly feeling awful about how long it's been since i talked to her. i keep hearing about the impending janitor strike on the news and i know she must be crazy busy and she's organizing part of that. perhaps i must call her...

oh, and gip. another starbuckle creation. i especially like this one bc it looks so much like one of hers. *g*

::sniff sniff:: burning tofu!

ooooook. so i was saying to myself, self, you should write to the minister and tell her what a moving service you thought that was. because, it happens so rarely, might as well encourage it when it does. right? and i'm a big person. so, i don't like her, i can still give credit where it's due. but before i write her, i get a message from her. first she says nice stuff, about how great the music was on sunday, and how she knows it was probably a painful topic for me and hopes i'm doing ok. very perceptive of her, very nice of her to mention. then oh, i've changed the topic for sunday. get some new music, will ya? thanks!

rrrrrh! hello? you can tell the choir that they stayed late on thursday to rehearse a piece we won't be singing in the near future. poophead.

bleh. i've been out all day with judy again. i love judy. you all would too, if you knew her. trust me. lala. we watched a little hp, just for the heck of it. oh, and also, we talked and i cried some more. guess i wasn't so much done with that. she's great to talk to. and her mother died not so long after my brother. so, she understands a lot. and listens to the rest. i am feeling the love for judy.

and my tofu is burning! must go.

and you know something funny?

when judy and i are talking about our life troubles, we inevitably end up quoting or referring to lotr or harry potter. hee.

the seven

ok. my turn on the bandwagon. this has been tormenting me. why? dunno. partly bc the natural answer seems to be the hobbit boys, but um... they're all short. and i think i'm not into boys who are shorter than i am. i think i could make an exception for billy though. oh! and that's right, any two of them at once, that would make up for the height thing... *g*

so...

1. billy boyd (or any 2 of him, elijah, dominic and orlando [yeah, i know he's not short but i only want him as part of a combo])
2. emma thompson (not as obsessed as i once was but... yeah)
3. tobey maguire
4. chloe sevigny
5. james marsters (more to the point, spike)
6. lothaire bluteau
7. minnie driver

when i mentioned this to judy, she said, hmmm, i think i'd just have to say viggo mortensen seven times. ha! i never knew.