the sky is just a little sister tagging along behind the buildings, trying to imitate their grey

oh, the very distant murmur of thunder. please. rain. i want it so badly. please.

so. yesterday i revealed my ice-fixation and was told i may have some sort of mineral deficiency. hmmm. apparently, the obsessive need to chew on ice is a symptom of said deficiency. well then. i don't know if i want to be cured, since i truly enjoy the chewing of ice. mmmm.... want some more ice...

your basic average superstar

big decision today. to go to reunion or not. 5 year college reunion. why would i not go? bc i'm stressed out and have too much to worry about right now. bc i'm afraid to see people i love. shit, was that honesty? emily. shannon. i can't even think who else. andy. the other people from nice shoes. i can go tonight and come home some time tomorrow... so i have a chance to gather myself before work on sunday.

why would i not go? i love my school, i love so many people from there. it's just been so long. i should be happy and proud though. this time i'm going back with a new degree and all... at my two year i kept having to tell people i was a secretary. but i had fun. rach was there. riki was with me. it's just... it won't ever be like it was... as wonderful as it was. i don't need to be reminded of that.

need fic

ok, i am desperate for a good, slashy piece of fiction. help me. is there anything out there i'm unlikely to have read? something that's at least decently written? help me. please.

my friends suck

rl friends, that is.

we're having a 'party' to paint our new apartment. meaning, we'll have music and food and stuff and our friends will be free labor. so, we sent out an evite to all the people we could think of. we've had a bunch of responses... but they're all from rach's friends. _one_ from a mututal friend and one of my friends can't come. hello? why are much friends a bunch of lazy losers? they're all bumming around, done with school, jobless. like me. rach's friends responded right away and they're all sounds like fun! woohoo! can't wait!

feeling unloved.

yeeeeehaaaaaw

GO SENEGAL!!!!!!!!!!!

that's right. whup france's bootay! hah! take that you former colonial power!

senegal, suma xarit le. namm naa le torop. namm naa sumay xaritu foofu. bugg naa dem foofu bu baax. inshallah.

it's coming....

winds are picking up... clouds are moving in... radio said severe thunderstorm warning. yeah, baby, bring it on!!!!

so, yeah. i'm going to my reunion. i don't feel so bad about spamming bc i'll be away from computer til at least tomorrow night, and probably won't write much then either. i hope i am emotionally secure enough to do this. funny how the problem is how much i love these people i'm likely to see. i guess i tend to be one of those people who would say, "if you're gonna go, just go, now, and stay gone." so... seeing people i have categorized in my mind as "gone" is pretty jarring. even thinking about seeing them.

my fondest hope is that we all get good and schnockered tonight. then i can stop thinking about all this crap.

wish i had some ice to chew on...

repeat

not saying anything i didn't already say. i'm just thinking again...

yay senegal!!!!

really, i'm delighted for any african country to kick ass... but senegal... damn man, they just deserve it. and my buddy daouda must be one happy man right now..

off to western mass...