phineasjones

big decision today. to go to reunion or not. 5 year college reunion. why would i not go? bc i'm stressed out and have too much to worry about right now. bc i'm afraid to see people i love. shit, was that honesty? emily. shannon. i can't even think who else. andy. the other people from nice shoes. i can go tonight and come home some time tomorrow... so i have a chance to gather myself before work on sunday.

why would i not go? i love my school, i love so many people from there. it's just been so long. i should be happy and proud though. this time i'm going back with a new degree and all... at my two year i kept having to tell people i was a secretary. but i had fun. rach was there. riki was with me. it's just... it won't ever be like it was... as wonderful as it was. i don't need to be reminded of that.

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