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[phineasjones]

thanks to all of you who sent love and hugs yesterday. it helps. i don't know where i am in the whole mess. i've talked to my parents. my mom is unreservedly contrite. my dad more reservedly so. they've apologized. i've accepted but not forgiven. but i don't really know how to do this. this be mad at them thing. especially my dad. my mom and i are both so emotional... it's not that unusual for us to be upset with each other. but my dad... this is new territory for me. i guess there's not much to do other besides let time pass and anger and hurt fade.

i don't think i'll change anything about my journal. why should i? well, not true. i think i'll make much more frequent use of the security features. but... whatever. whatthefuckever. i'm just frustrated that i even have to think about this. in this way... this sort of retroactive way.

i started this journal for slash purposes exclusively. then it became a handy way to be in touch with julian, scott and sarah as well. now what is it? my parents window into a specific portion of my life? should i have my dad on my friends list? won't that totally change the way i write and think on here?

i just don't frickin know what to do.

but now i have to calm my tummy and sooth my puffy eyes so i can try to get a job. great. like i've even been able to think about this stinkin interview since yesterday afternoon. eh. wish me luck.

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Good luck

[scottxwl.livejournal.com]

!!!!!!

Re: Good luck

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

thanks man
!!!!
*g*