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phineasjoneslost may have lost me. i mean, not so much that i'm going to stop watching. but i'm just not excited about it anymore. not like i was after the first 4 eps or so. where are the polar bears, man? oh, but of course there was that one squeeful moment when charlie wrapped his arms around hurley. omg ♥!!! we were watching on tape and i had to rewind and see it again.
also last night i watched the iron ladies, which is one of the strangest movies i have ever seen. probably one of the worst too, but it was too earnestly cute for me to feel that way about it. i don't know, though, something about that french canadian movie has sent me trolling through the foreign section looking for gay movies i haven't seen.
i'm trying to make my cup of coffee last. because that's my excuse for sitting here when i have an unfortunately large number of things to do in the next hour. my psychiatrist appointment is at 8:45 and i think i have to head east right from there. which means i need to have everything for the next day and a half gathered up. which right now i totally don't. eep.
it would be too ironic for me not to feel anxious about going to the shrink to discuss anxiety. anyway, of course i'm anxious. it's unknown territory. i rather wish i was going to be seeing a woman, but i didn't think of that until after the appointment was made. lynn has already talked to him some, and that helps. especially with the feeling that i have to try to squish everything about my mental state into one, hour-long visit and then await his judgment. am i totally messed up and in immediate need of druggage? am i supposed to be feeling like this and should just go back to talk therapy? am i exaggerating everything and nothing's really wrong and i should stop whining? ok, i know. but still, that's what in my head this morning.
heh. i just realized that i keep picturing him being in a dark wood office lined with book shelfs, sitting at a huge desk with leather chairs. but hi, this is umass mental health services. he'll have the same ugly ass digs as everyone else at umass. that kind of helps.
and omg! s7 buffy arrived yesterday! ::bear hugs E:: and now it may have to sit pretty 'til rach's final papers are all done. (and omg, if you believe that one....)
also last night i watched the iron ladies, which is one of the strangest movies i have ever seen. probably one of the worst too, but it was too earnestly cute for me to feel that way about it. i don't know, though, something about that french canadian movie has sent me trolling through the foreign section looking for gay movies i haven't seen.
i'm trying to make my cup of coffee last. because that's my excuse for sitting here when i have an unfortunately large number of things to do in the next hour. my psychiatrist appointment is at 8:45 and i think i have to head east right from there. which means i need to have everything for the next day and a half gathered up. which right now i totally don't. eep.
it would be too ironic for me not to feel anxious about going to the shrink to discuss anxiety. anyway, of course i'm anxious. it's unknown territory. i rather wish i was going to be seeing a woman, but i didn't think of that until after the appointment was made. lynn has already talked to him some, and that helps. especially with the feeling that i have to try to squish everything about my mental state into one, hour-long visit and then await his judgment. am i totally messed up and in immediate need of druggage? am i supposed to be feeling like this and should just go back to talk therapy? am i exaggerating everything and nothing's really wrong and i should stop whining? ok, i know. but still, that's what in my head this morning.
heh. i just realized that i keep picturing him being in a dark wood office lined with book shelfs, sitting at a huge desk with leather chairs. but hi, this is umass mental health services. he'll have the same ugly ass digs as everyone else at umass. that kind of helps.
and omg! s7 buffy arrived yesterday! ::bear hugs E:: and now it may have to sit pretty 'til rach's final papers are all done. (and omg, if you believe that one....)
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Date: 2004-11-18 12:29 pm (UTC)just thought you might like some warning.