strange days

[phineasjones]

awake awake and it's early. i'm heading northeast to my grandfather's house this morning, to help paint his porch and to just see him, which i don't do much. it's another gorgeous morning, so i can't say i really mind the drive. but the waking up... oy.

lessee, did i read something yesterday? oh yes, i read imperfection, pandarus' hermione/ginny. sooo good. this is what i want this pairing to be. this is the kind of place i think OotP ginny can take us - smooth and confident and a little mischievous in that fred-and-george way. and how could hermione not find that attractive? i ask you.

i lost it at a customer service type over the phone yesterday. in a way i don't usually. i mean, i was generally pushy and forceful during the hours i was on the phone with various people - which i think one has to be or they'll just push you over. but the last person received my full wrath. i yelled and swore at her and hung up on her. which makes me pause and scratch me chin in a who-am-i? sort of way. i'm caught somewhere between thinking well, that wasn't very nice. it really wasn't that woman's fault and go me for not being nice for a change. they were a bunch as assholes and deserved some yelling. i so rarely let myself say nasty things when i think them. i can't say it made me feel good... but i think it made me feel strong.

today needs to look like this:
-go to papa's
-come back and type and send beta ;)
-finish up feedback challenge
-practice (workshop starts monday-tuesday! eee!)
-go see farenheit 9/11
-go to bed early you crazy girl! ne stay up pas!