consequence

[phineasjones]

i need to be in bed. it's been a grand day - coffee and swimming and singing. but i've decided to go with siena to jamaica plain in the morning to listen to the rolling requiem. and it starts at 8:46. and it takes a while to get there.

it's one of the few things i'm doing tomorrow that's related to the anniversary. i almost wasn't going to do anything. i'm not a patriot. i hate so many things about this country. i will never sport a flag. but... i've been trying to separate my feelings about what happened that day from my feelings about all that's happened since. it's not easy. but i can remember enough the shock and fear and pain. enough that i won't let the day go by without reflection. i pay attention to anniversaries - i always have. tomorrow, i'll go to the requiem. then rach and i have invited a few friends who live in the area over in the evening. we won't watch tv or listen to the radio. we'll just be together. it was such a horribly sad day. being around people was the only thing that helped. so. friends.

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[ashkitty.livejournal.com]

i've been trying to separate my feelings about what happened that day from my feelings about all that's happened since.

Believe me, I know just what you mean. I remember last year, and I was just as shocked and sad as anybody else, it's just so much of the aftermath that's left me just disgusted.

I was never one for anniversaries, anyway.

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[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

glad to know i'm not the only one who struggles with this. yeah, last year, there was a day or two when i thought all the people with their flags were sort of touching - a show of sympathy and support. and then it quickly became frightening and made me feel uneasy every time i saw one. still does.

did you go to the requiem?

[ashkitty.livejournal.com]

*bonds* Yeah.

did you go to the requiem?

Couldn't...it's in Seattle at 8 in the morning, I would have had to leave by 2 a.m. to get there. ;) I'll just listen to it at work later.