phineasjones

i could not have any less desire to get in the car and drive to work today. really, i don't think it would be possible. i fantasized about pretending to be sick but i can't deal with what it might mean for me to be avoiding the one good job i have. also, in a weekly rehearsal/performance cycle, missing one rehearsal is a killer.

the kitten's habit of rubbing her face against my face might be the cutest thing ever.

but still i just really don't know what to do about just how awful i'm feeling right now. it's debilitating and heavy and confusing and i don't really want to talk about it but mostly because i don't understand it yet. and i don't know what i'm going to do to fix it. my inclination to crawl into a hole doesn't seem particularly constructive.

Current Mood: blah

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starbuckle.livejournal.com

nothing but love. and sympathy. and strength.

:::lines:::

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camillafarfalla.livejournal.com

You know this, but for real, if you want a New York-shaped hole to crawl into - for a change of scenery or location or ~~divers~~ distraction or anything, you're welcome any time. Really.

I love you.

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holdenrevisited.livejournal.com

A report from the hole: Although your inclination on non-contructive crawling is accurate, the hole is doing pretty well these days and sometimes I think short visits may be necessary. Talking about anything even seems hard as well so I'm there with you. If you'd like to just get out of the house and stare at a cup of tea with me your more than welcome...:::hugs:::

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jjtaylor.livejournal.com

Thought this haiku was meant for you:

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brightest-blue.livejournal.com

I think I know just how you're feeling right now. I've been in the hole for about five days, and am just peeking out today, groundhog style. I don't know if it's constructive or not, but maybe sometimes we just need to.