angst in the morning

[phineasjones]

i just deleted about six attempts to not be a mad, raving fangirl about the fic i just read. but i still can't control the impulse. so. OMG i just read the most amazing DiR fic ever!!! liek, omgwtflol!!!11!!1! read it right now! ahem. that is to say, this story is very, very well done. quiet and intense in a way that grates on your nerves and brings you right into the heavy tension that pervades the story. i did not expect goodness on this level when i followed that link this morning. i've been floored by it.

in other news. mm. i have sworn up and down to myself that today will be productive day. we all know what that means. that it will really be berate myself for not being productive day. i'll try to keep that to a minimum - or at least not post about it.

yesterday i heard again from ex-rommie!L and her e-mail made me cry because i love her and miss her so much. her reaction to my slash-obsession and such is just... well, exactly what i should have known it would be. perfect. because, my god, who in my life would understand obsession better than she? camillafarfalla is giving it a good go... ;) but damn. <3

and. choir has lost its romance after a second rehearsal. i sat next to a warbler (in a early music choir! wtf was she doing there?), anney sat next to an annoying woman who thought she was better than everyone else, the sopranos were too frickin loud and i sang badly in my attempts to compensate. the reading wasn't as strong as last week. still, we were making pretty music which always beats not making pretty music. and i got to hang out with anney.

and then we watched queer eye with jenny. ahhh, it was such a relief after last weeks horrific disaster. phew.

first task of Productive Day is to deal with my scary e-mail situation. scaryscary.

Comments

[camillafarfalla.livejournal.com]

OMG i just read the most amazing DiR fic ever!!! liek, omgwtflol!!!11!!1!

ahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

I just realized, laughing my ass off reading this, how very calm and controlled and low-key you are on lj. Which in itself is funny to me. Not to say that you're not that way in rl, of course, but your ljfandom-freakouts are fairly rare, I feel. In comparison to your level of squee when, say, we're on the phone. Man, so all these people in lj-land think that you're all composed and poised about fandom. ::snorts::

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

um. ::facepalms::

[camillafarfalla.livejournal.com]

oh my god, how did you not warn me about the horrendous level of angst in this story?!?!?! I really can't deal with W/B that doesn't have a happy ending... and suffering!Bran?! ::weeps:: I mean, it's very good and all, but just... I didn't know it was going to kill me when I started it.

::picks self off floor and goes to explore DiR archive again::

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

i know, but i didn't know either and that's what made it as painfully good as it is. and i have come to believe in the enduringly painful will/bran (as i have said today). you know the answer of course...

REMUS/BRAN BABYYY!!!!!!!!!

[camillafarfalla.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I can entirely get behind the Remus/Bran. I'd like to, but... (and this is what makes it my one real, true, OTP more than all others), Bran has to be with WILL!!!! And something has to work out that they're together and happy, as long as they're both alive. I think this is on almost the same level for me as S/R for you; I just absolutely can't believe or really understand at all another pairing for either of them. Also, I think I'm a Will girl more than a Bran girl, and therefore sympathize far more with his angst... and for him to see Bran with someone else...? Just kill me now. ::wibbles::

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

but they'll never be together!!!!!!1

ok, no, i don't think that, i'm just being me. i totally know where you're coming from and if sirius hadn't kicked it, i would spit on someone who suggested this. but sirius kicked it. ::cries:: and while ultimately, i want will/bran... i also really think those stories of ash's that are bran/barney-ish while really will/bran are onto something. i think will would be sad to see bran with someone else but happy at the same time, knowing that he couldn't be it for him. because, when you break it down, them bein together is painful for both of them - because there's the things he knows that bran doesn't. so... he could tell him or bran could know in some way... but i have yet to read anything but crapfic about this. the orgasm which unlocks bran's memory, for example. yeah.

but remus/bran... it would be more like sirius/remus/bran/will. remus and bran could be happy... and still have their angsty loves. and the _issues_ brought on by remus telling bran about magic? just imagine...