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last night we ran into a family from willa's daycare and ended up eating dinner with them (which is this weird kind of thing that happens now that we're in a parent coop daycare in our neighborhood - we see people we know all the time). they have a daughter a few months older than willa and now also a three month old. at one point when i had tuned out of the conversation and then back in, the mother was describing a sleep pattern that i was kind of happy to hear about, it was so similar to willa's and i'm used to willa having the worst sleep around. only later did i realize that she was describing her newborn's sleep, not her toddler's. sigh.

which is to say willa woke twice in the three o'clock hour last night and i'm tired.

i've been kind of addicted to looking at willa's old daily photo tumblr lately. partly because holy crap we're about to have another little one like that and partly because she is just the cutest thing that ever happened to the world. we're going to start the tumblr up again for baby 2, in case anyone's interested - peanuts among us.



so, project life makeover has gone pretty well, all in all. there is a major exception: work. i'll get to that shortly. but here's a run down of what i did last week and what from that list is left to do:

( lists )

that's a lot i've been getting done, which feels pretty great. the question i keep trying to ask myself is, 'what if rachael went into labor right now?' which is the key question and that will be what generates this week's lists.

the house has been in really good shape but it got away from me a little over the weekend. that happens on weekends and it is endlessly frustrating to me. disrupt my routines just a little and i pretty much fall apart. but i'll take the time this morning to put things back to rights.

ok, so, 'what if rachael went into labor right now?' - these are the things i would wish i had aleady done:
( more lists )

it' crazy to be feeling mostly ready when a couple weeks ago i didn't feel ready at all. it's also great.

maybe work shit needs its own post. also there will be some photos of willa coming up, because she is at an incredibly adorable place right now, and it needs sharing.

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alright, it's time to talk about work. you know, the thing i'm not doing?

it felt right to focus on being physically prepared for the coming birth for a while. but now we have all the things we're supposed to need and most necessary accommodations are made and oh, yeah, i start work on wednesday night.

hahahahahaha wednesday.

the thing about my job at the church is that i am not employed for the months of july and august. and i always end up with a little work to do in august anyway and i don't mind because june is really light.

so once again it's the end of august and i have not done the calm, thoughtful planning that i fully intended to do over the summer. wednesday night is my first rehearsal and i don't know what music we'll be singing, whether i'll have anything close to full attendance, etc. i also have a substitute lined up for my leave but she'll need actual plans from me about what music to work on when, etc.

i still need to do really basic things like look over my review from last year and make sure i remember everything i'm supposed to be working on this year. and put away the music we used at the end of last year. all the practical, boring things.

i feel completely out of it. at least i managed to schedule this rehearsal that's coming up in two days. i did that one thing which now forces my hand on all these other things. but it's time to really lay out what all those other things are. which means... more lists!

( omg it's another list )

principally, though, i just need to stop acting like i'm not about to be back at work. like i'm not really technically already working. i like this job and most of the people involved in it. i don't want to leave them in the lurch when my leave starts and i also very much do not want to feel like there is more that i need to be doing once that baby is here.

so. there will have to be still more lists soon, as i integrate this and my other tasks. sighghhh. it never ends.

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i also promised some pics of cuteness so why don't i get on that while i'm here?

here's willa showing us buster's various parts:

( more pics of toddlers and also a cat )