delkhiin devjeed denselgesen shargad
Jul. 1st, 2004 07:30 ami respect lj for owning up to it's assholeness. if you had a paid account anytime in june, get two weeks free. and looking at that tells me my renewal is coming up. already? how can it be?
i took that personality quiz everyone is doing. and omg, it is wrong like the wrongest of very wrong things. unless my perception of myself is not at all based in reality. ( bizarre )
so. i don't necessarily feel much less tired than i did last night. but i'm more highly caffeinated. that counts for something. the first night, while on break during the seminar, G told anney and me that due to overload and lack of sleep, people start breaking down midway through the week of the workshop. and i thought, heh, that's funny. clearly, that won't happen to me. why would i break down? except, um. i'm so tired. focusing is difficult and the thoughts in my head when i came home last night were more or less: i suck. why am trying to be a musician. clearly, i am on the wrong career path and should be pursuing a life of administrative assistantship. i'm not fooling anyone, might as well drop out now and save myself some pain. which, i suppose, could be considered a breakdown of sorts. things aren't so bleak this morning, but i'm not feeling entirely chipper either.
( yesterday )
today is a different schedule. we have a bunch of afternoon free. i plan to get some practice in. and bob is giving a lecture/group sing on the evolution of medieval music. i'm looking forward to that. and tonight is 'silly seminar,' which may bring extreme dorkiness but will probably be entertaining. oh, also, today is silly t-shirt day. i think the silliest one i have is my merry and pippin t-shirt. so that it will be.
i took that personality quiz everyone is doing. and omg, it is wrong like the wrongest of very wrong things. unless my perception of myself is not at all based in reality. ( bizarre )
so. i don't necessarily feel much less tired than i did last night. but i'm more highly caffeinated. that counts for something. the first night, while on break during the seminar, G told anney and me that due to overload and lack of sleep, people start breaking down midway through the week of the workshop. and i thought, heh, that's funny. clearly, that won't happen to me. why would i break down? except, um. i'm so tired. focusing is difficult and the thoughts in my head when i came home last night were more or less: i suck. why am trying to be a musician. clearly, i am on the wrong career path and should be pursuing a life of administrative assistantship. i'm not fooling anyone, might as well drop out now and save myself some pain. which, i suppose, could be considered a breakdown of sorts. things aren't so bleak this morning, but i'm not feeling entirely chipper either.
( yesterday )
today is a different schedule. we have a bunch of afternoon free. i plan to get some practice in. and bob is giving a lecture/group sing on the evolution of medieval music. i'm looking forward to that. and tonight is 'silly seminar,' which may bring extreme dorkiness but will probably be entertaining. oh, also, today is silly t-shirt day. i think the silliest one i have is my merry and pippin t-shirt. so that it will be.
