i was dead, then alive. weeping, then laughing.

ivyblossom's sweet story and the grey coolness of this morning have put me into to lovely, calm, contemplative mood. i feel wonderful. thanks, ivy. thanks, morning.

yesterday was what i would consider a moderately successful day. in that i accomplished some things and didn't feel like a bum by the time i went to bed. this is good. so, the goal is to build on that for today. i have a list of things i want to accomplish. want to know? well... i'm going to list them anyway.
- make present and card for rachel's birthday
- go for a walk
- choose some music for upcoming church services
- draft a letter to church choir
- set up audition for paid singing position
- organize study
- check out job sites rachel sent me
that all seems rather reasonable, doesn't it? we'll see how it goes. at least i have a concept of what i want to do. and thank goodness that the morning started with ivy's story. now i don't have to spend all kinds of time trolling around for a decent read.

tonight we're going out with rachel and her boyfriend to celebrate her birthday. dinner and a movie. possession. i'm all nervous just thinking about it. pleasedon'tsuckpleasedon'tsuckpleasedon'tsuck. damn. i wasn't even this worried about the hp movie. just. i adore this book. and i've thought so many times about how you could or could not make it into a movie. i just hope this person hasn't fucked it up. that's all.

i have not always been true and kind

uh oh. getting bored with my icons again. except draco. ::pets draco::

i love the album octoroon by laura love. because
- amazing grace - is delightful to harmonize with loudly in the beginning and then dance around the room to later
- her cover of come as you are rocks the socks off the original
- octoroon is an ass-kicking song
- i love nonsense lyrics and this album is chock-full
- she has a nice, high voice i can sing along with that's not annoying like, say, joni mitchell's

( nonsense )

also, i like vanilla and i think it's sad that it's associated with bland-ness.


but the feeling was mine and the duty to refine

there are things that happen and leave no discernable trace

ok. so. i knew it wouldn't hold up to the book. couldn't. but, lord have mercy, it didn't need to suck this badly. (we're talking about possession of course) i think - though i can't be entirely sure - that it doesn't matter how many times i've read the book and how much i love it, the movie would suck regardless.

anyone out there read it? anyone? bc you know what they did? they made roland american. AMERICAN! what? and kept referring to his american-ness throughout the movie like it was some funny joke. wrong. they made him american and this kind of swaggering rogue. SO not roland. nothing to do with roland. i love roland. he is my favorite thing about the whole book. arrrhh! they made him stupid. and maud. ugh. i really think gwyneth paltrow could have made a good maud, if they had written it well. no surprise, they didn't. she was all soft and flirty where she should have been icy cold. most of their interactions were completely rewritten and rather poorly.

the ash-lamotte parts were much better... though i think they had christabel all wrong. and jeremy northam would have made a much better roland than ash. at least they didn't make so much shit up. they more or less stuck with the story - even the parts with blanche, which i feared they would write out.

i could go on and on and on. fear not, i won't. i just don't understand... why would you undertake the making of a film based on a book if you don't care at all about the book? just... why? and it's blatantly clear that he didn't care about the book... i mean, roland! nuff said. they took this gorgeous novel and made it into a sappy romance. an extremely sappy romance with constant, overdone string music. oliver said, "i thought it was romantic." ugh. why are we always on about this manly men stuff? boys are sappy. sappy sappy sappy. and so was this stinkin movie. please, don't waste any money on this. stay home and read slash.