i might be going a little crazy. or it might just be the pms. some months i feel nothing... and am surprised. sometimes, like now, i feel and see a million little clues as to what is going on inside my body. i'm tired, i'm heavy. my bras feel too tight. everyone i saw yesterday irritated me in some way. it was a supreme effort to be polite to the woman i spoke to in the supermarket. the h/d fic i was reading last night and this morning made me moody and tearful. the sound of siena's voice on the phone this morning was overwhelmingly wonderful... i thought i would cry again from the happiness of having her back in the country and the prospect of seeing her so soon. suddenly, my state of aimless joblessness has become terrifying and crippling, when i scoffed at it days ago. i have little cuts on my hands... from clumsy accidents and cat scratches. not many people see this as part of pms... but i do.
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starbuckle's post, we did, in fact, research crush!liz last night. rather, i did, so she doesn't have to feel like a stalker. and discussed a plan of seduction. and jenny gushed uncontrolably. and it was fun. wish i had more advice for dealing with the potentially straight object of a crush... in my life and experience i have come across so few women who are not open to possibilities at the very least...
what i really want, right now, in my moody little state, is to go over toscottxwl, hominidj and harrimad_sol's apartment and curl up in a ball on their floor and watch geeky things on the tv. i love my girlfriend. more than i can possibly express. but she wouldn't watch the wrath of khan with me last night. meh. sometimes i just want to be geeky. with geeks.
instead, i need to research ferries that can get us to long island tomorrow. i hadn't thought of that... the fact that it's a bunch of islands. hadn't thought of how the care would get from one place to another. ::sigh:: happy to see siena. grumbly about the effort it will entail.
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starbuckle's post, we did, in fact, research crush!liz last night. rather, i did, so she doesn't have to feel like a stalker. and discussed a plan of seduction. and jenny gushed uncontrolably. and it was fun. wish i had more advice for dealing with the potentially straight object of a crush... in my life and experience i have come across so few women who are not open to possibilities at the very least...what i really want, right now, in my moody little state, is to go over to
scottxwl, hominidj and harrimad_sol's apartment and curl up in a ball on their floor and watch geeky things on the tv. i love my girlfriend. more than i can possibly express. but she wouldn't watch the wrath of khan with me last night. meh. sometimes i just want to be geeky. with geeks. instead, i need to research ferries that can get us to long island tomorrow. i hadn't thought of that... the fact that it's a bunch of islands. hadn't thought of how the care would get from one place to another. ::sigh:: happy to see siena. grumbly about the effort it will entail.
