too darn early

i find myself wanting to comment on everyone's posts this morning. i guess i feel a little chatty. sadly, no time. church staff meeting. my personal idea of hell. i am completely unprepared for said meeting and shall have to make lame excuses for myself... uh, i'm moving... i.. uh... haven't been feeling well? lie

my story is going nowhere... uh, i'm moving. yeah, well that really is my excuse this time. it's still in my head but i haven't been writing it down. meow! i want to, i want to give it to betas before i go away. must find time. thing is, half the time i'm alone on the computer, it's the middle of the night and i have no brain for writing anything.

off to hell

in my new apartment

the walls of the bedroom will be: yearling peach
living room: enchant and obi lilac
bathroom: swimming
study: russet rose
kitchen: muscat and orchard ladder
craft room: old nasty wall paper we don't have time to remove

so now i'm off to the paint store.

hugs to all the people i wish i had more time to hang around and comment on/chat with. really, that's any of you who might be reading this.

du bist die ruh, der friede mild

reunions also set me thinking about geekiness. am i really a geek? or am i a geek poseur?

what is a geek really?

a geek and a dork seem to be different things to me, though not mutually exclusive. i see a geek as someone who is obsessively into something. it could be almost anything. hence, we "music geeks" used to hang out playing classical tunes for each other into the wee hours of the night. my ex-boyfriend is a sci-fi/fantasy geek. i appear to have become, of late, an lotr geek. and a slash geek? does that work?

anyway, i was thinking about this bc at reunion, there was this chick who came up to me and enthusiastically chatted with me as though we had been great friends... and she qualifies somewhere in the geek/dork continuum. i vaquely recognized her as someone from bellatrix (the sci-fi/fantasy group at my school - many of whom lived in my dorm senior year).

what was my point? oh yes. i realized an uncomforable truth... that i was one of the cool kids in college. i mean, it's not like high school where the roles are so defined... and smartness and studiousness were considered cool at mhc - moreso than the ditzy girliness that earns one that distinction in high school (i was definitely not cool in high school). but i was not what anyone would have called a geek... and now to have developed my current geek-love... and suddenly be put in touch with the fact that i am not seen that way... just very weird.

also weird that this woman was so excited to talk to me at the reunion. i don't think i would have known her name but for her name tag. she showed me her engagement ring. great! i said, not sure what else to say. too busy thinking about the fact that i was probably more like her in secret ways than anyone watching us would have guessed. and how that seemed unfair. i was 'rescued' by my friend emily and managed not to see the woman again during the reunion.

yes, i am left mildly uncomfortable. with her, with my own thoughts. with my concept of geek. hmm... still thinking.

i'm not your only friend but i'm a little glowing friend

ok, goals for the rest of this night:

1. finish packing everything packable in the living room

2. write at least another 3 pages (ish) of story - doesn't have to be good, just has to be something i can work with later.

two goals. it's almost 11. can i do it?

oh!

almost forgot to relate most exciting tale...
well, it is exciting for vegans. i suspect it would be hard for non-vegans out there to relate.

so, after picking up keys to new place on sunday, rach and i were headed to the nearby home depot. we were checking out the neighborhood businesses as we drove, wondering, without much hope, whether there would be any restaurants around that would serve anything vegan. unfortunately the food establishments all seemed to be variations on "vinny's sub shop." sigh. pho!
anyway, then i saw the sign on a building - "vegetarian wholesale, boston cookies." boston cookies!? they are the very tasty but too pricey vegan cookies that i enjoy v. much. so we made a u turn, parked and went over to check it out. there was a man gardening in the driveway of the building. he asked what we were looking for - we told him we had just moved into the neighborhood. he said he and his wife own boston cookies. told us we should go inside and chat with his wife. we did. she was so nice. she gave us a mini-tour of the place. then she asked if we wanted some cookies. they had all these perfectly good cookies and brownies that were broken so they couldn't sell them. we said sure, we're having a party soon.
the woman gave us pounds of cookies and brownies. three huge bags full. they await us now, in the fridge of our new place. yes, vegan treats, nearby. with friendly people who like to give us things. woohoo! this bodes well for the new place. so yeah, non-vegans may not fully appreciate this, but anyone with some diet restriction will surely be sympathetic - and see how fortuitous it all seems.