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phineasjones27 june 2007
taken while on campus yesterday. can you tell what it is? weird, eh?
yesterday was pretty good. i had fun at sia's lesson again. very good for my brain, i think, to be going over random theory and sight singing and conducting stuff. it's good to review basics.
and the double head-shrinking was mostly good too. i really love my new therapist. julie. we talked about stuff and then she read to me about different kinds of perfectionism and i had to say which ones applied to me. too many, is the answer to that. it's funny how long it took me to accept that perfectionism is one of my issues. for a long time i thought i can't be a perfectionist because i'm not perfect. isn't that the point of being a perfectionist? yeah. clever, aren't i?
i just googled the list of types.
TYPES OF PERFECTIONISM
Physical perfectionists insist on an appealing face or figure.
Achievement perfectionists are determined to be the best and feel that mistakes are intolerable.
Ideal self perfectionists are obsessed with impressing other people.
Pleaser perfectionists want others to be happy with them all the time, they avoid conflict at all costs.
Emotional perfectionists are embarrassed by any vulnerable or negative feelings and try to be happy and in control at all times.
Self-critical perfectionists think they are inferior to others who are more intelligent, attractive, or successful.
Romantic perfectionists want the perfect boyfriend or girlfriend and so they continually give up on relationships because others are never quite good enough for them.
Entitlement perfectionists expect more from others and the world and are continually disappointed and frustrated by little inconvenienced and perceived injustices.
Obsessive-compulsive perfectionists insist on having their house or office immaculate at all times and continually check, organize, or clean things.
5 of them apply to me. but i'm not telling which. :) you can guess though, if you want. or tell me how many apply to you.
the session with the shrink was less interesting. i'm going to start weaning myself off the drugs. it's scary, but it's time, for a number of reasons. she was fine with that, and gave me reduced prescriptions. i just find that i miss my old shrink. who would have thought? he was so thorough. he explained things to me so well. and... i don't know. i think he was smarter than this one. at least he shared more of his smarts with me. and he was intuitive. and i felt like he really cared. i never expected to miss a shrink. but i didn't know what a good thing i had. this one chats with me a bit and then gets to the prescribing and we're done. which is normal, i guess. i just used to have better than normal.
voice lesson today! i'm excited. and kind of nervous. i haven't sung in so long. eep.
what do you suppose it means that i found and corrected a spelling error in that list?
taken while on campus yesterday. can you tell what it is? weird, eh?
yesterday was pretty good. i had fun at sia's lesson again. very good for my brain, i think, to be going over random theory and sight singing and conducting stuff. it's good to review basics.
and the double head-shrinking was mostly good too. i really love my new therapist. julie. we talked about stuff and then she read to me about different kinds of perfectionism and i had to say which ones applied to me. too many, is the answer to that. it's funny how long it took me to accept that perfectionism is one of my issues. for a long time i thought i can't be a perfectionist because i'm not perfect. isn't that the point of being a perfectionist? yeah. clever, aren't i?
i just googled the list of types.
TYPES OF PERFECTIONISM
Physical perfectionists insist on an appealing face or figure.
Achievement perfectionists are determined to be the best and feel that mistakes are intolerable.
Ideal self perfectionists are obsessed with impressing other people.
Pleaser perfectionists want others to be happy with them all the time, they avoid conflict at all costs.
Emotional perfectionists are embarrassed by any vulnerable or negative feelings and try to be happy and in control at all times.
Self-critical perfectionists think they are inferior to others who are more intelligent, attractive, or successful.
Romantic perfectionists want the perfect boyfriend or girlfriend and so they continually give up on relationships because others are never quite good enough for them.
Entitlement perfectionists expect more from others and the world and are continually disappointed and frustrated by little inconvenienced and perceived injustices.
Obsessive-compulsive perfectionists insist on having their house or office immaculate at all times and continually check, organize, or clean things.
5 of them apply to me. but i'm not telling which. :) you can guess though, if you want. or tell me how many apply to you.
the session with the shrink was less interesting. i'm going to start weaning myself off the drugs. it's scary, but it's time, for a number of reasons. she was fine with that, and gave me reduced prescriptions. i just find that i miss my old shrink. who would have thought? he was so thorough. he explained things to me so well. and... i don't know. i think he was smarter than this one. at least he shared more of his smarts with me. and he was intuitive. and i felt like he really cared. i never expected to miss a shrink. but i didn't know what a good thing i had. this one chats with me a bit and then gets to the prescribing and we're done. which is normal, i guess. i just used to have better than normal.
voice lesson today! i'm excited. and kind of nervous. i haven't sung in so long. eep.
what do you suppose it means that i found and corrected a spelling error in that list?
