Er...hi. Here from...er...not totally sure where, really, just flist-surfing and ran into somebody reccing this.
So. Fucking. Glad. I did.
Sirius felt completely panicked now, in the way that meant he had done something, a series of things, that was irrevocably stupid and he was going to have to grovel his way out. It was an unfortunately familiar feeling.
So completely Sirius I don't even know what to do with myself.
Sirius had assumed it would get better, that it was just the change that made him feel so lost. James grinned and slapped him on the back when he figured it out, “You’ll see. We’ll have a killer time of it now.” James’ enthusiasm was always contagious and soon Sirius couldn’t wait to leave school and have all the adventures he’d been promised. Remus seemed to be all right, too, though Sirius rarely saw him alone. That made things easier anyway.
And that? So much James I can't breathe. All of it leaves me breathless. Young, Lily-less James, so carefree and stupid he can't see what his friends have, and so talks them out of it. Young, equally stupid Sirius who can't even see it himself, and lets it go. And Remus, who does see what he has and what he lost, sitting close-lipped through the whole thing because he thinks Sirius wanted it. Just...guh. This is why I love this pairing. And I forget it sometimes, but this is why. Thank you.
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Date: 2004-11-16 02:58 pm (UTC)So. Fucking. Glad. I did.
Sirius felt completely panicked now, in the way that meant he had done something, a series of things, that was irrevocably stupid and he was going to have to grovel his way out. It was an unfortunately familiar feeling.
So completely Sirius I don't even know what to do with myself.
Sirius had assumed it would get better, that it was just the change that made him feel so lost. James grinned and slapped him on the back when he figured it out, “You’ll see. We’ll have a killer time of it now.” James’ enthusiasm was always contagious and soon Sirius couldn’t wait to leave school and have all the adventures he’d been promised. Remus seemed to be all right, too, though Sirius rarely saw him alone. That made things easier anyway.
And that? So much James I can't breathe. All of it leaves me breathless. Young, Lily-less James, so carefree and stupid he can't see what his friends have, and so talks them out of it. Young, equally stupid Sirius who can't even see it himself, and lets it go. And Remus, who does see what he has and what he lost, sitting close-lipped through the whole thing because he thinks Sirius wanted it. Just...guh. This is why I love this pairing. And I forget it sometimes, but this is why. Thank you.