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Aug. 5th, 2004 07:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phineasjonesi'm going to attempt not to get all melodramatic here, in my last post for a little over a week. but, omg, the clinginess in me is overwhelming.
moderation is a word people say to me, and i hear it and i think it makes a lot of sense, but i have never been able to apply to my life. it's like how being a vegan is not a problem for me at all but making little changes to my eating patterns is nearly impossible. i don't do lj in moderation either. and that's, in part, because i don't want to. i love being ensconced in fandom and friends and people's lives and cares and rants and fic! all the fic!
but. there's always a firkin but. i have some greater issues to be thinking of. well, one great issue - my future. and all the little issues that make it up. and being on lj, while a great source of support when i need it, is not moving me forward. alas. now that i spend 8:30-5 in a place i hate with people i can't stand for money that's hardly worth it, i need to take those other hours and put them toward making my life a little more like i want it to be.
and perhaps i'm being ridiculous to think i can do anything toward that in a week. but... i don't know. it's also about establishing some new patterns and priorities. re-evaluating. and it seems an especially good time, coming off of that wonderful musical experience last night.
so, the details. i'm off from now until saturday the 14th. the two exceptions may be 1.) posting the rest of jenny's trio!text when i have the missing piece and 2.) posting on monday night about the first lotr symphony rehearsal - as i'm sure i will want to record the experience and i definitely want to share it with you. i will answer comments i get during the time - when they come to my e-mail. and i will be answering old comments as i clear our my inbox. and please, feel free to e-mail any time about whatever. or text. you're my friends, i don't want to be cut off from you, i just can't read the daily journal for a while.
and, really, if you were inclined to tell me upon my return about the fic i missed or what's been happening in the 'dom, well, that would be quite alright with me.
i love you all. i'll miss you. have a great week.
moderation is a word people say to me, and i hear it and i think it makes a lot of sense, but i have never been able to apply to my life. it's like how being a vegan is not a problem for me at all but making little changes to my eating patterns is nearly impossible. i don't do lj in moderation either. and that's, in part, because i don't want to. i love being ensconced in fandom and friends and people's lives and cares and rants and fic! all the fic!
but. there's always a firkin but. i have some greater issues to be thinking of. well, one great issue - my future. and all the little issues that make it up. and being on lj, while a great source of support when i need it, is not moving me forward. alas. now that i spend 8:30-5 in a place i hate with people i can't stand for money that's hardly worth it, i need to take those other hours and put them toward making my life a little more like i want it to be.
and perhaps i'm being ridiculous to think i can do anything toward that in a week. but... i don't know. it's also about establishing some new patterns and priorities. re-evaluating. and it seems an especially good time, coming off of that wonderful musical experience last night.
so, the details. i'm off from now until saturday the 14th. the two exceptions may be 1.) posting the rest of jenny's trio!text when i have the missing piece and 2.) posting on monday night about the first lotr symphony rehearsal - as i'm sure i will want to record the experience and i definitely want to share it with you. i will answer comments i get during the time - when they come to my e-mail. and i will be answering old comments as i clear our my inbox. and please, feel free to e-mail any time about whatever. or text. you're my friends, i don't want to be cut off from you, i just can't read the daily journal for a while.
and, really, if you were inclined to tell me upon my return about the fic i missed or what's been happening in the 'dom, well, that would be quite alright with me.
i love you all. i'll miss you. have a great week.
