failure to quit

i'm not usually all weeehooo! about going to church on any given sunday... maybe if there will be good music or a guest minister. but i especially don't want to go today. this letter thing... well, i know it will be on everyone's mind. and i fear that the evil!minister could try to address it in some way and i feel that that would be a mistake. so there's that - the tension in the air - and there's the still sick factor. that should make pre-service rehearsal especially fun. i can barely speak and i had the worst night of sleep last night. ::whinge:: our music is ok but the hymns (chosen by e!m) are lame. and the topic is the war. and even if she comes down on the right side, i don't trust her to do it well.

this is a strange illness in that it has made me apathetic about lj and slashy readings for a good 5 days now. that may be a record. it all just seems to take more energy and focus than i have.

my parents came over last night (minus E) and brought me dinner (hot and sour soup!!! thanks, E) and treats and kept me company while mmm_cake was out bowling with camillafarfalla and their choir. it was very sweet. nice parents.

i suppose i should go put clothes on. otherwise next week the congregation will get a letter complaining about the way the choir director always wears her bathrobe to church.

(scarf update: going on 20 inches. this yarn makes me drooool! i can't wait for you to see it!)

surrender

church today wasn't so bad at all. they pointedly avoided nastiness by planning discussions for after church. there were a whole bunch of 'joys' during joys and sorrows. the e!minister's sermon was actually very good - about speaking your mind, rallying your conscience, how a true uu should be against this war. she quoted amply and appropriately from howard zinn. i was impressed... and i actually listened to the whole thing. highly unusual. i kept myself in constant supply of cough drops so as not to interrupt.

i will be spending the rest of the day on the couch, watching movie after movie, sleeping when the spirit moves me, knitting and drinking vast amounts of tea.

and tomorrow, i want the energy to be upright for a few hours in a row and a passing command of my own voice. thank you.

snap crackle pop

well, here's irony for ya. it's almost midnight and look who's feeling perky and relatively well. i watched three movies and two television shows today and it seems to have done me some good. (about a boy, x-men, billy elliot, simpsons and malcom) except that this same late night spurt of energy last night meant i slept really badly and felt like ass in the morning. hmm.

so, i'm going to go find me some slash to print out and read in bed. except that i don't know what i should read. hmm again. all my 'remember to read this someday' links are on my dead computer. :( i should have saved the latest underwater light chapter. what is it with that story anyway? i should have given up on it in frustration already... 11 chapters of pre-slash. but no, i'm still reading along, damn well enjoying it too. oh, what to read? where to look? these are the questions that haunt me this evening.

maybe i should also take a moment to appreciate the cuteness of all the movies i saw today. well, maybe x-men wasn't exactly cute. but the other two, certainly. i liked about a boy much better than i expected to. and i had seen billy elliot before but _damn_ it's adorable. and baby!slashy too. ::satisfied sigh::