should have just slept at the theater

what? it's not like i can just go to bed now. is it?

i don't know what to say. if there's anything to say yet. that's the longest shortest three hour movie there ever was. i am exhausted and hyper and weepy as all get out.

i need to see it again. like, right away. as soon as i can. i wonder when that will be. must find out.

ok, maybe just a few, very vague ( comments... )

um. i need to see return of the king. like, right now.

letter to my subconscious

i guess i'll try to go to sleep now. frodo and sam and legolas and aragorn are in my head, gazing meaningfully at each other non-stop. oh please, just this once, let me dream about them. please?

more about last night

it's so so very tempting to just walk out the door right now (maybe changing out of my pajamas first... maybe) and head to a theater near me. i need to see it again. i feel about it the way i feel when i hear a really good, interesting piece of music - like i can't judge right away. it's too soon and there was too much. after several more viewings, maybe i'll understand better how it fits together and why some choices were made. i just have an overwhelming sense of hmm... what to call it... awed melancholy.

so aside from the actual film part, last night was also fun. camillafarfalla and i met rachel and had some indian food as a late dinner. yum. then we went to the theater at around 10:45. it was being shown in two theaters - one was already open. we went in and the remaining seats weren't great so we went back out and asked if we could wait for the other one - and ended up at the very front of what would be a long, long line. so we had our choice of seats. go us. oliver and his friend marcus came. and later, allan and natalie. i squeed much upon seeing allan. i *heart* him. thus i was saddened when we took our (great!) seats and random!marcus ended up next to me on one side. (thankfully, camilla was on the other). i wanted my allan! ::pout:: and we even tried, "oh hey, did you want to sit next to oliver?" but to no avail. maybe i can convince allan to see it again with me some time.

we had to drive rachel home when it was over and i was wishing we didn't bc all i really wanted to do was sob openly. didn't do that.

mmm

i don't know if i could feel much sadder today without an actual reason. ::mope::

i think mostly i'm sad because i'm not currently engaged in my second viewing. ::mope::

i have cleaned the kitchen today though and, you know, that's uh.. something.

::mope::