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wouldya looky at what time it is? wtf am i doing up? am crackhead, surely.

long talk with starbuckle tonight. sadly, i think virtual hugs will never be as satisfying as ones delivered in person. would that i could deliver some hugs to denver tonight. and that we all, everywhere, could just cut ourselves a little of that proverbial slack. especially you, sweetie.

seeing lotr today was all i hoped it would be. i just really enjoy that movie, i must say. for many reasons, from many perspectives. i cried more on this, my 8th viewing, than i ever had previously. though i'm always close at boromir's death scene - oddly, my favorite scene.
have concluded that i could abstain from imbibing all fluids for 3 days prior to viewing this movie and i would still have pee when they enter lothlorien.
my dad didn't like it much. he didn't say it outright, but i could tell. whatever. i know i didn't get my taste from him. or from my mother for that matter. where did it come from? and i'm glad eileen decided not to come. bc i didn't need that shit.

i ended up acting like a child when they visited anyway. i was grumpy poodle. they came into my quiet kitchen and made a huge mess in seconds flat. they did make a rather nice lunch (even if the tofu was mushy) and an amazing dessert. well, i made shortcake and soy whipped cream and they brought blackberries from their garden. so delicious. fruity sweet things are not usually my thing. but this was amazing. mmm. just thinking about it makes me want to eat more of it. no. it's almost 3. i will never sleep if i consume more sugar.

yes i did

i did not just spend the entire morning reformatting my lj, did i? hmm... it appears to be noon. whoops.

rach woke up when i came to bed at 3 last night. i'm so happy that we seem to be over whatever weirdness my internet addiction had generated. no awkwardness last night, just a sleepy smile and a hug. ::sigh:: i'm the luckiest girl alive.

mmm... shaved ice flavored with orange juice concentrate is tasty. and cold.

my lj entries have been boring as shit lately. a reflection on my life, no doubt. but tonight. ahhh, tonight i'm going to go sing the durufle requiem with my friend who's conducting a summer sing with his choir. i love this music immensely. some of the most gorgeous stuff there is. and my one chance to perform it so far was with a conductor far past his prime... and his prime may not have been so great. so, to sing it with any other conductor will be a joy. and with my friend matt, even more so, i'm sure. ahhh... durufle!

please pay before getting on the car

there are times when i just love my friends. like now. a lovely chat with allan. a mini but fun im with scott. and an e-mail exchange with matt, who is studying theology and sacred music, but likes to say things like,
"I invited Hillary and Josh, but I think they'd rather stay home and engage in deviant sexual practices."
yet another person challenging my view of what it means to be deeply christian. yes, i know, there are many of you out there. weird.

this day may be a record low in productivity. go me. well, if i could just hit bottom, i could start climbing again. singing durufle tonight seems like a step in the appropriate direction. after all, music. music!

agnus dei qui tollis peccata mundi

the durufle requiem is one heart-wrenchingly gorgeous piece of music. i almost lost my caca on the first read through of the agnus dei. when the higher registered organ part comes in over the waves of arpeggiated chords... and then the parts enter successively with the chant melody... always higher and higher. it's too beautiful. it makes me ache.

it was great to see matt and so great to see allan. i've missed them, though i haven't really been thinking about it. rachel was there too. and allan's gf and his roommate, ryan. we went to uno's afterward... met matt's wife there. it was more fun than it used to be when we went after bu concerts with the whole crowd which inevitably included people i wouldn't usually volunteer to spend time with. i wasn't getting a great vibe from allan and natalie... i wonder if everything's ok between them. they just didn't look as happy to be together as they should... after being apart for a year, they're in the same place again. i worry for them... but, to be truly honest... i think he could do better. (she's so nice, i'm terrible).

found out that rachel's ex-gf and good friend is an erotica writer... she's been published in best lesbian erotica and on our backs. she's giving a reading in providence in august and rachel asked if i'd want to go. hells yeah!

i'm wiped out from staying up til 3 - there will be no im for me tonight. but i'm soooo glad things are going well for starbuckle. this is one dizzying rollercoaster ride, is it not?