funny, i feel for sirius. clearly, this was all just as horrible for him... one could say worse considering azkaban and all. but it's the thought of remus being completely alone and feeling betrayed that kills me. yup. over and over again.
For myself, I know I feel more for Remus because of how their reactions are presents. Sirius, upon finding out Lily and James were killed, goes mad with rage and hunts Peter down. With Remus, though, Rowling doesn't tell us exactly what happens. We're only given that quiet uncertainty with which he first approaches Sirius, the struggle between suspecting Sirius and wanting to believe him. I pity Sirius and his situation in Azkaban, but he feeds off his anger in order to live long enough for revenge. Remus, on the other hand, has nothing to blunt the sharp pain of the apparent betrayal of a friend/lover and the death of his three closest friends. And the injustice of him not knowing the truth for all those years, living with those horrible thoughts and having to live with the rumors of what Sirius did, just tears me up inside.
Just my own view on things. ^__^; I don't often get the chance to mourn Remus's beautifully tragic life with a fellow HP lover.
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Date: 2003-01-30 09:13 am (UTC)For myself, I know I feel more for Remus because of how their reactions are presents. Sirius, upon finding out Lily and James were killed, goes mad with rage and hunts Peter down. With Remus, though, Rowling doesn't tell us exactly what happens. We're only given that quiet uncertainty with which he first approaches Sirius, the struggle between suspecting Sirius and wanting to believe him. I pity Sirius and his situation in Azkaban, but he feeds off his anger in order to live long enough for revenge. Remus, on the other hand, has nothing to blunt the sharp pain of the apparent betrayal of a friend/lover and the death of his three closest friends. And the injustice of him not knowing the truth for all those years, living with those horrible thoughts and having to live with the rumors of what Sirius did, just tears me up inside.
Just my own view on things. ^__^; I don't often get the chance to mourn Remus's beautifully tragic life with a fellow HP lover.